The 4th week home feels so much better than the 1st week. We are still adjusting, but we have all moved forward for the better. I know I am Justin's mother, but I didn't have those special bonding moments with him that I have had with my biological kids. To tell you the truth I was afraid of spending the whole day by myself with Justin while my husband was at work and my 2 older kids at school. Sometimes I didn't want to get out of bed because I knew what I had to face, the pressure and stress of trying to make our new family function. I wanted it to feel normal. After being home 9 days we attempted church. It sounds so ridiculous, but I was nervous going back. How would he react to all the strangers, how would my older 2 handle the looks and hello's. My other son even told me, "Mom, you gave 1/2 of your love to Justin." Aahhh....I thought after 60 days into our new family he would know I love him just as much if not more. I am tellling him over and over and over how much I love him and how Justin did not take 1/ 2 of my love. I love them equally with all of my heart. I guess I was naive on how I thought my children would respond. I knew they would be jealous, I knew they might second guess our new family, I knew they might not immediately love Justin, but I guess I underestimated on how long it would take for them to feel the love for their new brother. But then again, just now I can say "I love you" and feel it in my heart. For the most part I now get out of bed and I am happy to face my day. Before it was all pretty much routine of what I had to do that day. Now I can live my day instead of going through the motions.
Justin is understanding quite a bit of English. It is surprising what he understands. He is now starting to answer me back in English sometimes. He will say, "No thank you", "No more", "C'mon" and a few other phrases. He also can recognize some letters and today surprised me when we played a new game called Sequence Letters bought by Abuela Julia. It teaches him to associate a letter with a picture to teach him the sounds of the letters and also letter recognition. He can recognize most numbers 1-10 now so I went to a teacher supply store yesterday and found him some flash cards that help with recognizing and counting 1-20. I also bought a pencil gripper to help him with his fine motor skills, a puzzle, and a book of simple mazes, which he loves to do.
I am grateful to be in the place where I am, but I want to hurry to see the view from the top. So once again I am waiting. Waiting for everything to feel normal. But I am not complaining because we. are. home!!!!!!!!!
Justin is understanding quite a bit of English. It is surprising what he understands. He is now starting to answer me back in English sometimes. He will say, "No thank you", "No more", "C'mon" and a few other phrases. He also can recognize some letters and today surprised me when we played a new game called Sequence Letters bought by Abuela Julia. It teaches him to associate a letter with a picture to teach him the sounds of the letters and also letter recognition. He can recognize most numbers 1-10 now so I went to a teacher supply store yesterday and found him some flash cards that help with recognizing and counting 1-20. I also bought a pencil gripper to help him with his fine motor skills, a puzzle, and a book of simple mazes, which he loves to do.
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