I want vs. I need

It is true that we will be spending approximately a month in Honduras. My feelings towards this long of a stay in a foreign country have been all over the place. I have been waiting for God to send us back, but I think He has been waiting for me. When we initially signed up to adopt from Honduras 4-6 weeks didn't really cause us to flinch one bit. But after meeting Justin reality really set in. I don't know if its because he was older and he is able to grasp some reality of whats happening or if it is the saying that "seeing is believing". For a long time my anxiety was fueled by me being out of my comfort zone for so long, not knowing what we are going to do with 3 kids in a hotel, not being able to wander outside when we want to, what would we do? But one day it hit me, why am I causing myself so much misery when I can be doing something for children in need. I will be in the same place where children are in constant need, whereas my children are in constant want. Yes, my family will be consumed emotionally & physically on our journey, but the need will be literally staring me right in the face and I am bemoaning the loss of my comforts? The ease of everyday things, my spacious house, hopping in my car and driving wherever I want whenever I want, eating whatever I want, driving to Target and getting whatever I want. After typing those sentences I wonder how much of what I consume is what I need rather than what I want? (this is as far as I had written on August 12th).

 But now I am ready. I truly believe God was waiting for me for my heart to be in the right place. People sometimes think, God moves in mysterious ways, but I am starting to think that it is not they are mysterious it is that His ways are not our ways. I think that is the more appropriate term. I hope our family can be a blessing to the other kids there and we can keep everything in perspective. It will be hard at times I know, but please pray for us as we continue on our journey of trying to love God and loving others.